I came back to work after the Christmas holidays, and we had a new girl in our office. We didn't talk much at first since she seemed pretty introverted. Soon, she joined my friend group and we started talking a lot more ; I discovered she's a lovely girl and we transitioned to talking a lot on Instagram too. We talked a lot, sometimes 4 to 6 hours on calls until 2 am. I get to know her, she seems really nice, and I get an illusion that I might have a chance with dating her. We carried on being friends for a year with a small, insignificant argument here and there; about things like not caring about each other or not being honest when we annoy each other. We get pretty close and as time goes on, we become best friends. She tells me things about her never having a date, which is understandable since she's young and gets on better with boys than girls.

Anyway, we kind of started arguing more frequently for stupid reasons. I admit I was responsible for about half but yet once we got that far, she wanted to end the friendship and I go along. We had a pretty deep discussion ending in us realizing we couldn't replace each other and realizing we don't have to let go. She asked things like "Why do you care for me? " So far we have only been arguing online and acting normal or avoiding each other. Well that was about to change. The next morning she messages me with the idea of "let's not talk over messages, and just talk physically since everything is okay. I go along, since I didn't want to lose her as a friend and that argument was generally stupid. So everything becomes normal for the next couple weeks and one week it gets serious. It was a normal day at work, I came back home and I felt that things were different. We didn't talk much now, because of the arguments I didn't enjoy being with her and I decided to write her some message describing how attached I was, how two faced she acted, how much I didn't want to argue, and that something had to change in the way we treated each other. Well that turned out to be 960 words.

Her response was pathetic. Furthermore I found out she was annoyed by me expressing my emotions. I didn't expect this; I expected some kind of understanding. Once we get into some argument. She explains her lack of interest as a lack of human emotion but when I try to understand what is wrong with her or finding out where I faulted she would keep silent. I couldn't figure out why we couldn't understand each other. I keep messaging her and trying to figure things out, and understand her at the very least.

We get to a very sensitive area where she starts saying things like " You think I would ask for someone to care about me?, " I want everyone to forget about me - so I can finally fucking kill myself without hurting anyone". That was when I realized things were heading south. I took it as some sort of joke at first, she joked about suicide a lot before, but now I was a bit concerned. Later, she sent me a message saying " would you like to see my arm? - oh no! You think it's attention seeking ". I go along; she sends a picture of her arm scratched to near bleeding. As I later find out it's not the first time doing this just that before it wasn't as severe. I felt bad like anyone would.

The same day after work I message her that I feel bad, I know it wasn't because of me, but the least I could of done is be there for you and not annoy you with arguments, my feelings didn't matter at that point because she was my best friend and my girlfriend too for a while and I wanted to help. We talked a bit but she was very hostile. I wanted to help, she couldn't take the help. I asks why she thinks what happens to her is none of my businesses and she just couldn't respond. It was my business; if it wasn't I wouldn't feel bad. She says "just cause I showed you a picture of my arm you don't have to start pretending you feel bad for me". From the previous conversations, I started asking myself if she was really suicidal or was trying to fake it. It seemed fake to me at the time, because she had no reason to do it. She had friends; she had family. Turns out I couldn't help her because I was clueless of what to do.

So I decided to call her auntie who lives in Kibera so that she could help me with her situation. I couldn't get help from her but she told me to contact the people back at home. But before I could call her father, I had heard about doctor Ngoso so I decided to consult them. I gave them a call and described our situation, I explained about the problems in our relationship and also her suicidal attempts. They made spells for us to help rekindle our relationship and also to help her realize a purpose for her life so that she would not want to commit suicide again. I am glad I used doctor Ngoso because her parents would have over reacted if I had told them about what she was going through.

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